I just bitched myself out today for not eating very healthy in a while. (healthily?)

"What's the deal, Delphi? You haven't gone grocery shopping in like, two months. You've been living off leftover takeout and the stuff you get at your parents' house. You hardly give yourself the time to eat properly, and no, you HAVEN'T been paying attention to what your body's been asking for, so don't give me that 'My body instinctually craves what it needs' bullshit. The word for this is NEGLECT, little girl. You blow a wad treating some boy that you don't even really care about to an amazing restaurant dinner, but you can't even spend half that money making sure YOU get something decent every day. You still need your mommy to give you your healthy food. Sure, you're not eating Jack in the Box, you never do, but it's not that much better. Your meals are horribly piecemeal, and even IF you get your proper nutrients from the snacky-foods you've been eating, you know you're taking a mental toll too. On a certain level you are aware of when you're not being treated well, even if you don't register it consciously. Don't you forget that you are your own child. You will be angry at yourself for this neglect, and you may not even realize that you're sabotaging your own life in order to set this right. Fucking go to the grocery store and walk up every aisle, and remember for yourself how easy it is to cook a simple, hearty meal. If you're worried about the money of a grocery splurge, frickin' have your mom go with you. At least she's got her priorities in order. Get everything you need, and a little bit that you don't. Eat the vegetables first. And DON'T make me say it twice."

I'm sick of eating olives instead of fish.

3:20 p.m. 2003-07-26�